Day 88: One thing I learned today…
I am continually learning to live a life in which brings me happiness. For a while now, I was chasing happiness in the wrong places and in the wrong ways. I admit I am a bit of a retail therapy type of girl. I love to go shopping and buying things. It doesn’t matter if it is a new toy for my dog or a new car. Oh speaking of which… about a year and a half ago I purchases my first brand new car. I did this on my own (although I called Josh about 27 times throughout the process). I bought a very nice car with a lot of the bells and whistles. Guess what?!? That car brought me some happiness, for a little bit of time. Today, I sold that car (and really took a hit financially) But here is the thing. I do not drive much. I do not really have a need for a car. Especially that car.
This is kind of a scary decision for me though. Since turning 16, I have always had my own car. Never anything fancy but drivable. I could jump in my car whenever I wanted, to just go wherever. This new lifestyle will have some getting used to. Today during a group guided meditation one of my peers in YTT mentioned being able to “Trust the Process”. That is what I am doing. I am trusting in this new process. I also know that if my life circumstances change and I am in need of a vehicle, I can get one. I just don’t need the one I had.
So today, I am learning to embrace the idea of trusting the process. Not long ago I posted about the practice of Aparigrapha (non-attachment). This is the first step of many steps I am taking to live a life of non-attachment. This is going to be a difficult journey for me.
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